Wednesday, May 11, 2011

Recovery: Day 9 - Literary Party Decorations

I've been writing or sleeping away the pain in the days I haven't posted. The writing is in the process of being submitted to a journal so I can't post it. My graduation party is coming up on Sunday, which I'm totally stoked for because it looks like it'll be a good turn out. I also expect my throat to have a good tolerance for pasta, chicken, and cake by then. :D

The theme of the part is literature, and I've taken it upon myself to make all of the decorations out of card stock and construction paper. 5 decorations down, 11 to go.

Here is a preview!

The banners of House Tarth and House Greyjoy from A Song of Ice and Fire by George R. R. Martin and Ozma from the Oz series by L. Frank Baum

Friday, May 6, 2011

Recovery: Day 4 - Open Letter to the English Department at Pitt

Dear Current and Former English Faculty and Students at Pitt,

Thank you to the professors who told their students, "You know you're not going to support yourself with your writing, don't you? None of you are going to do that." Your bitterness over being failed writers forced into an educational setting was enlightening. You are the same professors who never wrote critiques for your students, but demanded that your students write detailed critiques for 21 others.

Overcrowding in writing classes is hindering to the artistic and intellectual development of students in the writing program. As mentioned above, our professors do not always take the time to critique our work, and it is left solely to overworked students who do not always have time to read 60 pages or more per week. I do not blame my fellow students for this. They have at least three other classes, jobs, and families to worry about on top of their own writing being neglected by professors. Instead of 22 people per class, there should be a maximum of 15 or even 12 for the Senior Seminar level.

But let's face it: Some people can't write, and some people just won't try. It is embarrassing to sit in a Senior Seminar in Fiction and read pages with an accompanying Author's Note that states, "I really rushed this story...I wrote it last night in an hour..." etc. then be expected to critique a piece of writing that would be unacceptable in an Introduction to Fiction course because there are no signs of character desire, development, or plot.

While it is true that students have a right to throw their money away on a field that they perform poorly in, those of us whom actually care about our work would appreciate being challenged and taught to develop our craft, which is what we signed up for. I'd like the suggest the implementation of a portfolio review for advancement in the writing program. At Edinboro University in Edinboro, PA (where I attended my Freshman year of college) students are accepted into the Studio Arts program without a portfolio. After completing their foundation courses, they must apply for candidacy to the program in order to continue to higher level courses. There is also the need to state one's career goals and the reason one desires to move forward in the program. This process would hopefully separate the dedicated students from the students whom often state they chose English "because it seemed like it would be easy."

Pitt's writing students would benefit from taking courses with students able to grasp and demonstrate basic writing skills developed in the Introduction and Intermediate levels. The program itself would gain a stronger reputation as an intensive writing program that does not tolerate laziness or neglect.

Some might be appalled by the suggestion that the program deny students the ability to follow their dreams, but that isn't what would happen. There is no requirement to have a BA in English Writing in order to become a published author. As the Fiction Writing program stands, I could have developed my writing to the current level it is at by reading craft books and joining a small critique group of other serious writers. However, I want writing programs to succeed because I want writing and reading to continue to be taken seriously, and to not be dominated by white males writing about middle class people messing up their lives.

There is a level of elitism that needs to be struck out of the program regarding "literary" fiction. Students have been told that they are not allowed to submit science fiction and fantasy stories because they are genres and are not considered literary, yet magical realism is literary. It should be noted that everything is a genre just by definition of the word, and there is no reason sci-fi/fantasy fiction should not be considered literary, especially when authors of those genres have degrees in Literature and Classics. The English department should look to hire professors dedicated to teaching writing with an unbiased approach, and should be required to give feedback beyond "This was a lovely story. Let's talk about it in class." or "This story needs improvement."

Now I have a few words for the students in the writing department. Stop texting in class. Stop whispering about how drunk you're going to get on Friday when someone's story is being critiqued. Stop skipping class and complaining about how horrible your grades are because you don't turn your work in. Stop saying you hate a professor because he/she is too demanding but in reality is one of those rare professors whom pushes you and wants you to succeed. Not all of our professors give us or our writing the attention we expect and deserve, but you're not helping our case. Your whining is part of the reason we can't have nice things.

Sincerely,
Jazz Sexton

Thursday, May 5, 2011

Recovery: Day 3 - Chickens and Sentences

When the task of writing becomes so overwhelming I can't even begin to write, I take it one sentence at a time. One word at a time would be too agonizing, but a well structured and/or flowing sentence puts me at ease.

One of the most beautiful sentences I have ever read is from Paul Thek's 96 Sacraments. The sacraments, hand written on journal pages, are currently on display at the Carnegie Museum of Art.

The sentence:

To fly away into the air about as high as a chicken can & then to come back.

I repeated this sentence to myself out loud three times when I saw it because I love the way the alliteration rolls off my tongue. Again, I'm put at ease. Not only by the words, though, but also by the image I conjure of myself flying away in the air about as high as a chicken can, and most importantly, of coming back.

Sentences help me come back to where I am in my writing. All I need is one to build off of, and it doesn't seem so daunting.

In the author's note for my senior seminar project, I told my professor that I love to tell stories but I hate to sit down to write. But, y'know, I think that is only true the more I avoid sitting down to write. When words start hitting the page, I feel lighter, and I feel worth something more to myself.

Wednesday, May 4, 2011

Recovery: Day 2 - On Pain

I feel like I haven't had much of a day because I've been either drowsy or sleeping. Between the space of 8 hours, I found time to compose a short poem about pain--physical and otherwise. I wanted to write about pain not just because I'm in so much of it, but because I'm in a "condition" that is so vastly different than the one I'm normally in, and that deserves documentation.

So here is a mostly unrevised piece. If it sucks, blame it on the pain killers.


I'm the opposite of a mother 
with a newborn baby. 

The baby screams her lungs 
away; I cannot open my mouth 
for fear my swollen and battered tongue 
will detach. 

How many times must I give birth 
to self-hatred before I stop performing 
what is bad for me?

All of my hatred is self-hatred. 
I despise living ghosts
haunting me because I hate myself 
for being incapable to stop 
them from harming me. 

I cannot sleep, I cannot dream. 
I cannot keep my eyes open, I cannot rest. 

My throat is a sandpaper scab 
burning out the sensation of all the tongues 
that have pushed open my lips, 
passed my crooked canine teeth, 
and gagged me on politeness or passion. 

My back is a series of suction cups 
holding me to this bed, 
but they are melting and blooming 
into white roses. 

I am new 
I am not the girl you once knew 
I have changed my name 
I have gotten tattoos
I have wrapped myself in shadow and fire
I am one damn good liar


Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Recovery: Day 1

I underwent surgery for the first time in my life today when I had my tonsils removed by a great team at UPMC Montefiore. For the next few weeks I will be attempting to remain a creative and witty person while experiencing the worst physical pain of my life.

And away we go...

Monday, May 2, 2011

DOs and DON'Ts For Your First Five Pages

Once your query letter has been deemed as being written by a human being rather than a crazed cyborg suffering from food poisoning, you may received a request to send the first five pages of your manuscript for the agent to consider. Please, for the safety of everyone involved, remember these few simple rules.

DO remind the recipient what your manuscript is about and which genre it falls under. A sentence will do. The person who read your query might not be the same person reading your first five pages. Hitting reply instead of opening a new email is a plus because the original query will be there for reference.

DO send the first five DOUBLE SPACED pages. Your manuscript should always be double spaced. Reading pages and pages of singled spaced text is not conducive to enjoyment or editing.

DO NOT send more than five pages. I swear on the almighty printing press, you will not receive a good response if instead of submitting five pages, you submit this: It will be difficult if not impossible for you to understand the character development in five pages so I have included the first six chapters.

DO NOT cut off the text mid-sentence. If the 5th page ends mid-sentence or mid-paragraph, it is okay to send the rest of the sentence/paragraph that falls on the sixth page. My intern responsibilities do not include copying your pages into a text document to make sure you have sent exactly five pages. This is the only exception to the rule above.

DO NOT attach your pages if the agent requests you send the pages in the body of an e-mail. If the formatting looks unattractive when you paste the text, find a way to fix it.